Water Mirror or Pervy Sage........

the one habit of mine which has lead to criticism so often from my friend sasimon has been that of me watchin nd readin Japanese manga(comic series)....well it seems that habit of mine may not die anytime soon(especially after startin wid Naruto).....one thing i have put my mind to durin these times is if me as a person bears similarities wid any of d characters i come across.........

The similarities between me and naruto(the character) were obvious,about the loneliness i had when i was younger,tryin various things to get peoples attention and comin to a great college and finally findin some real good friends(3 of them closer than most).....the similarities seemed never endin but the prob was that i was never as loud as Naruto,despite me bein an idiot i was never as stupid as naruto too.........So similarities ended there.....

Then came Shikamaru, another character in the same series......the way we thought was similar and both of us had real low grades for our exams tooo.....But i was not as good in chess as he was
and never in my life wil get an IQ over 200,so there ended our similarities(even though he still reminds me of a certain person i know,for people who dont get it yet his name starts wid V nd ends wid N,still dont get it then u dont know the guy).........

Another one of my most favourite manga series was 'Flame of Recca'.....The first 2 times i watched it i did not notice but the third time i started noticing similarities in nature between me and one of the characters in d anime.....This time it being Tokiya Mikagami(Mikagami means water mirror), the water sword master.......we were dead similar in the ways we thought and even in little things there were similarities between us.....i could say that he is one character i have come across which bears most resemblence to me............

But i m not rushing , there is yet another character which bears its resemblance to me.......Naruto readers will surely know Jiraiya,his god father,teacher and the one he calls Pervy sage due to his dealings wid women(:D).......for my close friends my character would bear more resemblance to Jiraiya then any other... (even though i do not consider myself to be that fallen).....
Well there could b hell lot of animes out there that i bear resemblance to.....I just wanted to blog about a few of them thats all......


PS-yeah i have seen more animes than Naruto but its while watchin this series that i began to find resemblances wid me or the friends around me..........if any people readin this find any resemblance wid me and any fictional character then u r free to comment......

For people not familiar wid Naruto,chck out http://naruto.wikia.com/wiki/Main_Page for details or goto http://www.mangavolume.com to read the entire series

The Ronaldo Saga-My Take........

For the past few months the one controversy that has been rocking world football has been that of the tug of war between footballing heavyweights,ManUtd and Real Madrid over the most (in)famous football star on the planet at the moment Cristiano Ronaldo..........Well here's my take on the whole thing and its implications not only for the two clubs and the player but for world football as a whole........
Let me first start from Rons side,having given 5 years of meritorious service at OT,making both home and away fans spend their savings just to come to watch you week in week out.....(most importantly choosing to return to ManUtd after the world cup Rooney incident and all the media hype assossiated with it in England)...plus winning every trophy available with ManUtd its natural for any player to look for a fresher challenge....especially if it involves a world record deal both for the player and the club and if the club that comes calling is your dream....
Moving on to Reals and Uniteds tussle.....it is natural for united to want to hold on to a player who has just signed a new contract last year ...tat too a bumper deal......In Reals case as their president Calederon has put it there is no club in the world which would not want Ronaldo at the moment(or is there?if Barca are to be believed)......
Real are willing to give Ronaldo a bumper deal equalling his wages with that of club captain Raul......( contrary to previous reports it would in fact be a pay cut for Ronaldo from his Man Utd wages,but Real are ready to offer him extra for his image rights).....
Also on the offing is a world record transfer fee if paid in full would dwarf what real paid for Figo........(there are also reports of a cash plus player deal details of which i would come to later)......
Looking at Real over the past few years,they had a horror run during the 'galacticos' years,but last 2 years under 2 different coaches they have won 2 la liga titles back to back....what has been noticeable about these wins have been the reliance on team ethics than on individual performers unlike in the past......players like sneijder,diarra,ramos and especially casillas(plus the up front combination of Raul and Ruud)...wats obvious that the player that real lack is by no means Ron(they already have 3 world class opertors for the wings in Robben,Sneijder and Robinho).....
So Ron is definately surplus to them as far as their team is concerned.......which makes it clear without a doubt that they want this deal just for selling extra merchandise.....United in fact are at the win win situation here because if the deal doesn't come through Ron being the professional he has been till now will come back and play his normal way(luckily for him his team mates are not against him yet so he will not hav emuch of a problem if he does come back so will the team united)..........If the deal does go through they can ask for Sneijder,Ramos (even Casillas!) plus significant amount of cash in return for Ronaldo,which would for all reasons damage the team structure at Real....It is known that the Real fans are upset at this deal as they do not want the repeat of the Galacticos mistake.......
One thing Ronaldo should have in mind about his new 'challenge' is that the fans in spain would not be as considerate as ManUtds who were with him thru even his tough times(Remember what came of Ronaldinho and the other Ronaldo)....If he leaves United no doubt those loyal supporters will turn against him and he can get ready for a repeat of what Figo got at the Nou Camp if at all he ever steps foot in OT again......plus Real being a team of the adidas brand and Ron under Nike contract the deal would be financially less beneficial to him........
Plus if the deal does happen it would put new questions on player loyalties.....what Real did to United could soon backfire on them at some other time......(i heard Mr.Platini murmur somethin about Uniteds debts and that Real have every right to court Ron coz they are finacially secure,hope someone informs him that Real is also under debt of over $400 million)........
So whatever happens in this saga could be a turning point for world football in some sorta way.....only time will tell how it would pan out.........

Dashaavatharam-The review of a blogger

i am not an active film critic,not even an authority to speak on films....but if i don't write about dashavatharam it might be refusing to comment on one of the most wonderful works of art,ignorance about one of the most brilliant scripts ever written in Indian cinema and oblivion of one of the greatest actors of all time........
Sure,i should have to mention here that there is a considerable amount of people who did not like that movie...fair to them,it is pardonable for a mega project worth 165 crores from kollywood is widely expected to be a run of the mill kind of story with all action,colour,dance,drama and sensuality( its a Kamal flick of course!!)........But Dashavatharam falls short of most or so it seems,the action is good,so is Avtar singhs dance but the storyline seems to happen all too quickly for comfort.......A lot of my friends were saying the 10 avtars were a show off and they damaged the base story....so on and so forth.....even my father,a hard core Kamal fan seems to think the movie is not good......Respect to all of you,till the half way stage of the movie,i was like you tooo..........But then the intermission happened.....
Sitting in a dark corner in a theatre in nedumangadu me and Kichu were shocked to a great extend by what we had seen......The first 15 minutes and Rangaraja Nambi were superb....But the story in the future did not seem to make any sense...was this turning out to be another of those big budget mega flops.....Sceptically we decided to put our grey cells into the matter....Were there meanings hidden to all that we were seeing?......
Kichu lit up the first idea......Like the fight between the shaivas and vaishnavas in the 12th century...here in the 21st century also we are in the middle of a fight,like the religious sects of 12th century trying to destroy each other now we have super powers and super terrorists and a deadly vial in between.....
In the beginning we see Rangaraja Nambi perishing for holding on to his beliefs......The scene is breathtakingly shot and Kamal sir excells in the role.....so does Asin and even Nepolean as the Saivite king.......
Then the focus shifts to Govind a biotechnologist working in a lab in America.....He flees of with a deadly vial when his boss tries to sell it for big money....and after him comes Christian Fletcher(again Kamal Hasan) an ex CIA agent and the hot again looking Mallika Sherawat......
The scene shifts to India where the rest of the avatars come into the picture.............
As Balram Naidu the(Telugu not to be missed)CBI officer Kamal as the story teller and protagonist(s) portrays the present day habit of officials to come to their own conclusions and refuse to even lend an ear to poor Govind's plight..........
Christian Fletcher is an architypical anti hero and one of the best in recent memory....it was easily the avatar which caught notice by normal film goers like me............
But more than the avtars it was what each stood for that mattered........
We had Govind,Fletcher,Balram Naidu all main characters in the base story......Then we had sub plots for each characters.....Krishnaveni Amma who had lost her son and with it her mental stability to whom is addressed the deadly vial......
There is a scene in the film where Krishnaveni Amma slips the vial into an idol of Perumal.....Here the story passively tells us of the dangers of religion, of how peopler misusing the belief to meet their own personal ends is just as dangerous as a vial today........
Then we have the story of Vincent Poovaragan,a dalit leader up against the sand mining lobby.......He is easily one of the characters you take back after watching the movie.....The touching scenes where he saves the lives of the children of the head of the illegal sand miners who threatens to kill him at the time of the tsunami giving up his own life in the process is nothing but a great display of humanity.......
And the scene in the climax where Krishnaveni Amma recognises Vincent as her long lost son is also touching....But also to be noted is that it is a brahmin woman recognising a dalit as her son..........
Then the character of Shingen Narahashi(inspired from Narasimha of the original dasavathars),silently touches on Hiroshima and Nagasaki through his pupil Yuka who is killed by Fletcher.......Narahashis quest for revenge also reaches its climax just before the climax of the film......
Then we had Kalifullah,a 7 foot giant whose plot showcases the trials faced by a muslim family suspected of being terrorists......
Then of Avtar Singh a Sikh singer who has a tumour in his throat....The end of his story may resmble an old Rajni kanth story line but the way it has been taken in the film is good enough to make us believe in it........
The story of Govind and Andal,is again passively told by the director to be the continuation from that of Rangaraja Nambis......That they get reunited in the end at the same place where Rangaraja Nambi and his wife get seperated.....
The story basically has 10 subplots which gets intertwined and finally reaches a common climax with the tsunami.....
In each of the dialogues and of the film the director and scrpit writer sometimes sarcastically,sometimes passively takes a dig at a lot of social happenings.........
In short for me personally Dasavathaaram is definately an epic ,a film which has something for everyone watching it.......Just that we have to inspect hard to appreciate it..........

Writer's Block...

May 2007 i guess it was....i had just finished Os Amantes nd was searchin for a different topic other then love failure for my next work(a lot of my friends suspected i just had a love failure,some of them even made stories)......
I first thought of writing a report on the sorry state of Indian cricket and ways to improve it.............
(India had just crashed out of d world cup then)...By the time i made up a good report,India had won the 20 20 world cup and everything was fine again...So that remains still in d shelf for d next time India messes in cricket.....
By then months had passed since my last work nd the words Vyali my bloguru said to me when i
started blogging was ringing in my ears,"keep blogging,never stop,there are some who start blogging with some zest,but in due course stop blogging after some time....."...I did not wnt to be among them....I hated them....So with that mind set,i came online...sat in front of my computer
with one aim-to write a new blog,to let the whole world hear from me again.............
I started typing...but very soon i had to close my window ......my imagination was dryin up....
i could not type....Writer's Block or something like that was upon me.....
I had become what i had loathed.....i had become a dead blogger....efforts were on straight away to 'phoenix'ify my blogging.....I badly needed a subject,nd complexes prevented me from choosing a topic on love.....
By that time i had begun to travel a lot on train(first time in my life alone).....i went to all sorts of colleges....some on top of mountains...some in the middle of rubber plantations....for fests....some of those journeys were successful,some not....I wanted to write about my journey's but this time
my hands were trembling when i entered blogger....i could not type even if wanted to........
Something was blocking me....what was it i don't know.....
then one day my friend Manzu(aka manju aka manzoor)..visited friendscetians nd next day was
askin the same thing which many had asked me before....y aint u blogging nw?......
I did not have an answer...but he did make me recollect each and everyone of my past posts.......
nd the obvious fun i had in writin them........
I decided that day that i will blog again.....but what to blog about.....a lot of topics went thru my mind.......
Then it dawned on me....y not write about the very thing that kept me from blogging for a year......y not blog about my writer's block?....
So here i am writing about my writer's block in order to end my writer's block.......Hopefully my worst has passd nd i will blog again......Hopefully..........

darkness was all tat was there in the land.......people there did not know wat light was,they could not even see each other....but they still lived on....by sounds they recognised,by touch they felt each other......by smell they hunted....and their spirit kept them alive............
The ever enduring darkness held many dangers,but they still enjoyed their life.....there were scientists among them,there were soldiers,there were doctors and engineers among them...........
And there was love too,deep in the annals of the ever enduring night love was found and there was beauty and seduction in voice.....and music ,there was music too....the soft blowing breeze refreshed their mind and the ice chilled rain water cleansed their body..........
For an outsider their life might have been one of misery but for them their lives were of joy,love and laughter....
Their inner flame keeps them alive and pushes them on day by day.....in a world where eyes are useless they do not see the ugliness of the world around them...beauty they could already sense.....
all of us are like them......we have eyes but we do not see or wish to see wat happens around us .....but worser than them in not sensin the evils around us......worser than them in suppressin our love,worser than them in lack of spirit sometimes.....worser than them in wishin for wat we dont have yet not carin of the treasure that is within us....worser than them in not using ourselves to speak out and act against the injustices around us........................................................

Demons and Angels(About me in orkut).....

Told i was that there were devils and angels in this world....That for every angel that is born in this world there
is a devil born to be his/her enemy..Astronomy tells you that for every sun there must exist a nemesis...
Alan Iverson once said,"For every one million people that like me there are ten milllion who hate me"...
No one person not even the great Mahatma can claim that every person in the world liked him....
Throughout my little time in the third rock from the sun i have had many people hatin me...special mention must be given to most of my teachers of plus one,plus two in school most of whom expressed their displeasure with me during the few hours i found time to be in class.......
then there are contemporaries,some hate me for the person that i am,some i have been told envy me(god knows wat is there in me to envy)....but every one do manage to show each of their 32 teeth when i wave at them....
people will continue to hate me.....
but through all these 1000s who wants to find a reason to hate me there are still 600 odd people in here and many more around that really do like me and hell i ride with them.....
Where is that sun who has born with me as his/her nemesis...where is tat angel who wishes to take on this demon.........
HELL I AM WAITIN

Os Amantes

"Hey Ashi.....i m waitin for half an hour at the Parkinsons square....make it quick..otherwise we may not make it to the marriage in time".......Ashish checked the message in his brand new N95 and smiled...the sender was Kiran...a friend from college,his former classmate now workin in Infosys..He was on the way to the marriage of another classmate Mini J Kuriakose,and had to pick up Kiran on his way....'Some things never change',he thought...he still was as poor in punctuality as he was then...Then and now,Boy! how quickly could things change....from being the number 1 uzhappan in his batch at CET to now being a highly dignified self styled 'guru' in mangement....
From a middle class teenager to a highly paid,sought after buisness whiz........what a difference just 5 years can make!...He was smilin smartingly as he drove his new mercedes, given as a complement to him by his new boss for choosin that company to work in,through the final turn that lead to 'Parkinsons square',a former hangout place durin his FCT days when in college(*FCT-Futbol Clube de Thozhuvankode..biggest daysci gang in CET)......Kiran was there,sweatin heavily in the afternoon heat...
'Wow man!new car",Kirans facial expression and his emotion towards his friend changed as soon as he saw his friends new car......"You got to give this to me for a ride dude",Kiran said as they were drivin towards the church were the marriage was to take place....."No way man!",said Ashish and even though smilin he meant it too...his new car was his baby,he did not want to give it to anyone....Kiran still pestered around for some more time,kept quiet for exactly 30 secs and asked,"Why did u say u were not comin when u were first invited for this dude?"...Ashi's bollywood star like face suddenly hit a frown,he looked at Kiran and said "Nothin,did not feel like it"...
It was not 'nothin' ,Ashi said to himself in his heart....Mini whose marriage he was goin to was his sweetheart when in college,it was one one secret he never let out of his heart...not even to his closest of friends..There were reasons myriad,he thought as he drove through the now expanded city road,Mini belonged to a very rich and famous Catholic family......and Ashi in a lower middle class family of the other religion....It was not only religion,despite being the rebel he was in college(and even now),he knew this was one love story which was never meant to take place.........also his academics was on the lower side when in college too,which at that time implied a low placement..and his basic intution told tat Mini who was one of the biggest bhuji's in class would never fall in love with him....So he froze that feeling in heart...but still it somehow did not die down...and he could feel it very clearly when Mini's best friend Akanksha called him up to invite him to the marriage on her behalf.........Thats why he said no in the first place at the same time wondering why Mini's marriage took so long to happen...
He was still engrossed in thoughts as he drove into the church where the marriage was to take place....As he and Kiran went inside there were a lot of old faces waitin for them,all of them lookin at fascination towards Ashi-now an IIM graduate who was recruited to the topmost IIM despite being a fresher....Employed in a consulting company first,then in Halleburton,and after that now in another dream company drawing an astronomical salary and is now easily the most eligible bachelor in town..

The marriage took place,the lunch was over......everyone was leaving....the usual photo session with friends took place.....Ashi and Minis eyes just met once and they smiled at each other..The newly weds left the place....
The other friends met at the local CCD in the evenin for a pre planned get together.....Ashi,Kiran and Akanksha(with her little baby) were there.....Just as the party was over and they were on the way out Ashi asked Akanksha,"Why did Mini's marriage take so loong?"...She gave a startled look and then started speakin,"Now its over i can tell u,Mini liked u,no loved u when in college...right from the first day she saw u...but since she was afraid anythin might happen to her father because of her relation with u...so she buried her love for u..also she thought she was not your type of girl..in the beginnin she rejected all the proposals that came to her coz none of them were u.....even though she gave different reasons for it...it was evident this was the reason..finally her parents made her choose this guy,that's why the marriage took place".........
As Akanksha finished her story,Ashi's face changed and his face conveyed his emotion to Akanksha......She left without sayin anythin more...
"Ashi, can u atleast give me the keys now....for the ride back home"...It was Kiran,Ashi handed him the keys without any delay....."What happened?..Did u see a ghost?"Kiran asked him as he started the car....Ashi did not know the emotion that he was going through,is it sadness?anger?he did not know.......As the silver Mercedes streaked under the city lights Ashi sat inside................ like a man.............. who had lost every thing ................

FCT-Viva la Futbol

Think FCT,think of the mime and the group dance , think of the two anchors that stole the show at
Miraglo......Whenever you hear two people talkin of football transfers in the sllepy classes of CET think FCT...Whenever u hear the calls 'Jayashenko'(fromShevshenko),'Muninho'(Mourinho),Zizou aka Ashwin,Torino aka Hari,Mosqui,Rammanaro and all think FCT.....

The expansion may be less impressive for a few but 'Football Clube de Thozhuvancode' is the biggest gang in S3 CET at the very moment........now comprisin of over 30 members startin when a group of absolute football crazy maniacs decided to use an empty plot of land near Manushe'(aka Anush)s house to play durin weekends and 'strike hols'.......but little did they realise what they were embarkin upon would soon turn into....members started increasin and increasin and soon we had to shift ground to our new home ground 'Concordia Lutheran'(its on the way from Mannamoola to Peroorkada,the ground that you see to ur right,thats it!)......

Nite outs,'Appy' party's and definitely not to forget our bashs at 'The Park Rajadhani' to name a few of our yo-activities........FCT is now a familiar name for those of the 2k5 batchers of CET...we have grown so much that even guys from other colleges are part of us now.....

A majestic logo,spaar nicknames and add to that an orkut community is just part of the excitement of bein FCTian......We are yet to have a girl member but to tell the truth we are not eager for that either(Hey, we have nothin against women,but the excitement of an all boy group is different).....

And guys(and even gals) who are eager to join us after readin this,well the requirements are very simple, all you need to have is 'love for 'soga bonito'-the beautiful game'....

Well if it was D-X for WWE,Barcalona for football,Australia for Cricket its FCT as far as CETian concerned...in FCT we have some of the most talented dudes you can ever find in a campus anywhere in the whole of Kerala.....

We define our own attitude.....for nerds who don't know what its like to party,to enjoy life and love the most beautiful game in the planet...well FCT is not for you...everyone else is welcome
into our little haven..

We really dont know for how long our assosiation is going to last but we aint thinkin of it now...the only thing we are concerned about now is our next match in FCT colours.....so with cheers to all lovers of football here's Muninho signin off .......

For the Girl who loves me.....

I have always had this feeling for some time now that there is a girl who loves me like hell.....may be i know her may be i dont......behind every stare that i receive, in every conversation behind my back i can feel your love for me...whenever i talk to a girl i feel your jeolousy....i dont know whether
i know u in person or not,but i am sure you exist...
Call it my intuition,extra sensory perception or whatever,but i know u exist.....
I can feel ur feelings for me and the depth of ur passion,but what i cannot see is why,why are you hiding this from me.......
U may have ur reasons.......i accept........to tell the truth i have never said yes to a single girl who had said 'they liked me'....and who knows i may say no to u as well......
May be you feel you and i are not meant to be together,you feel that our worlds are far apart.....
well thats what love is meant to be.....union between two minds faaaarr faaaaarrrr apart.....well it could happen between people similar as well but that love for me has less bite....
If you are similar to me then lemme tell you somethin one of my closest frns is very very similar to me and she is a girl too......so u can try bein my frnd first and who knows your love may succeed.....
Well this is a real short blog and i intend to keep it so......i know even if there is a girl who loves me truly as i said then she may not be readin this at all.......but nyways just u know that i can feel ur love and i respect your decision not to inform me of it and if in any case in futre u decide
to lemme know of ur love for me just go ahead,i may just say yes...........

Ace of all Trades

Once in a 'Best Manager' competition i was asked what my usp was?......I didnt have an answer then,and as expected i crashed out of that competition....but the question ramained in my mind......what was that one sentence which could describe me the best.......what was that which differentiates me from the rest.....

All through my life i liked being active and busy....i still remember being called by my computer teacher as 'the busiest person in Bhavans' when in school.....kinda liked being called that too..i was busy right from my lower primary.....there was no event,no competition that i didnt take part in..
do still remember the prizes i won in 2nd std for Hindi recitation,Malayalam story talling and of course fancy dress...i do remember taking part in the 100 mtr dash,a fiercly contested event in 4th std and being tripped down by a 'friend' of mine from behind.....

And of course how can i forget my first assembly speech in front of the whole school assembly when i was just in my 6th std......i also remember being taken to the princis room a few days later for a fight with my friend......and even a couple of weeks later i remember winning my first inter school prize in a quiz........

I did study classical music for a couple of years......got until a few keerthanas and then left it because i had begun to loose interest.....
Also studied break dance for a few months but stopped after my dance master commented that he had never seen a worser dancer in his life.....

I even had a cameo appearence for a tv serial,and had a couple of quizzes on DD........

Well dont be astonished further when i say i am a Karate green belt too and i took it when i wuz
12,never studied since...........

I am a former school leader and i wont be going overboard when i say i am a well remembered one too.......

Favourite hobby in 12th was to sleep in my tuition sirs class........and of course to fight with my class teacher in school then....

Now in CET i may not have much to show but i am an active member of the 'Mass Bunkers Assosiation @ CET'.....

Also the member of the rocking L&D club comprisin of some of the most spaaarin CETians .....

I thought i did not have much to offer to sports but that all changed after FCT came in......There i started to love 'Signo Bonito' -the beutiful game-football........together we are the biggest DaySci gang in CET........It was here that i got nicknamed 'Jose Muninho'......

All through my life i have lived by a simple policy on friendship-either you love me or you hate me.....if you dont love me then surely you must hate me....But all through in life the people who have hated me have been very less and by gods grace it may remain so.......

Well now coming back to my earlier question.....what was the one sentence that describes me the best.........'Jack of all' may be the first word that may come to mind but be it arrogance be it my hatred towards going by the normal tradition or even 'self proclaimation', i consider myself as a much more valuable card,yes friends i am the 'ACE OF ALL TRADES'....................

Heart Break @ midnite

It was nearly at around 2:00 in that fateful monday morning after my heart bore the disappoinment of my favourite sides loss to its arch nemesis in the league that i went back to my room to rest for the day,as was my usual routine i went to charge my mobile.Then i saw the usual symbol of my unread msgs in my mob and as any normal curious guy would do i checked the SMS,there were about 8 of them,but more than the number what interested me was the person who send it.......it was her........my heart was pounding like hell as i opened her msgs one by one............the wordings were different in each but each seemed to say to me onr thing and one thing only........................."I m sorry,i tried to see u in that way but i cant,u just dont fit into my frame for my dream man"........................."I m sticking to my earlier stand,mate this has to end some way and i just cannot keep givin u hope as there is none"........................................it was as if a lightningbolt had struck me..............................she had said it to me many times before but i wouldnt give up..............i kept tryin.....................we had many a debate about our 'concepts' of love......................................but this msg was different,may b becoz it came at a time when i wuz emotionally down,may b bcoz it had a language quite different from wat i had seen from her previous msgs..........................as i read through the last msg which was the first send by her........'plsss call me back if u receive this'..................my throat was dryin...............i could feel a hot lump there................as i stood without knowing wat to du nxt,my phone vibrated again.........
'plsss reply if u had gotten my earlier msg',it said.....................i did not know wat to du,i knew there was no point in telling her tat i still luvd her,i may b even loosing a gud frnd if i did tat.......
my eyes became watery,i knew and had stuck to the norm of 'boys dont cry' always,but it was a nite tat emotion was overpowering me................and as the mobile was vibrating the next time there were beads of my sorrow running down my cheek...................deep in sorrow i started to write my reply................i explaind to her my condition.....................told her tat her words were draining more out of me than a futbol match...................but she didnt understand my words.........hell if she had done this situation would never have taken place..........................
with the heaviness my heart was feeling i told her through my nxt msg...............'plss dnt msg me ever again'...................and it ended..............................she for all the ages hasnt msgd me again...........whenever we have met afterwards she does notice me i know..................but she gets back nothing from my cold barren face.............she never msgd me ever again.........................she may think tat it wuz just another crush and i may forget it...............but for me it wuz much stronger than that...........i have seen many girls in my life from tat point on but none have invoked in me that feeling,that emotion that she did....................i may never forget tat nite,tat dark nite in which my heart wuz broken................................

P.S-This is the end of my trilogy on love,i did not have any particular person in my mind when i wrote this,but if somebody feels his/her story is similar to wat is being said in either of the 3 blogs then i am honoured to have narrated ur story even unknowingly...........................................................
Sd
Muni

The dark proposal....

It was a really dark night when i first informed u tat i loved u,and the very next morning i got my

reply,the stereotypical "I tried,but i couldn't see u like tat",yup tats wat almost every girl says to

that unfortunate soul who is unlucky to be born on this earth to not have a successful love ,she

said to me tat she was not at my level,but in this world my dear nobody is at any level

constantly.But beneath all the differences u could see about us i could see only similarities,of

our selflessness,of our spirit,of our love for the fellow being.

And when i told u this u said 'Opposites attract,Likes repel',well it was frustrating as u first

found the differences now weren't u contradictin urself?..................Well when i told u back the

sayin 'Like dissolves like' is more true,u smiled back at me and said 'u should have gone to NLS

rather than CET'................

And we debated she said to me 'why waste ur time with me?in ur pursuit of something u will

never get u may be loosing something more precious',but u dont realise my princess that u are

my most priced diamond that i keep in the deepest,darkest corner of my heart.....................u

rejected my love as a mere 'crush' but my seneorita every love relationship starts with this

mere crush..........................


U have asked me to give up a 1000 times now,but u do not realise that my passion for u will

drive me to propose to u another time,if failed then another far above what mere numbers can

limit..................................................my love for u can make me consume the most feared of all

poisons,make me take on the most powerful of all demons..........................................


My dear here i propose to u again through this dazzling array of words,I know that a mere 3

words cant quantify it but here it goes again,'I LOVE U MY DARLING,MY QUEEN AND MY

EVERYTHING'..........................It may feel to u as ludicrous,but i will keep on trying because i

know someday u may realise the passion tat my heart holds ,the warmth tat my chest


holds........................




TILL THAT DAY...............................................


Dedicated to a friend of mine whu someday may realise wat true love is................................................

An Ode to an unknown lover

I dont actually recollect the first time i actually saw her or heard about her,
the real sad thing is i forgot the first time when i actually fell in love with her...
I dont know till date what i fel t special about her,
It shouldnt have been her looks or was it,
Was it her ever captivating smile,
Or was it the 'aura' that i felt around her,
What was it that i liked about her,
What was it that made me feel her so familiar,
eventhough i was seeing her for the first time,
I had seen many other girls before,
had many other so- called 'one-ways' before as well,
I thought i was past all that,I thought i had become mature,
But seeing her,seeing her the colours that were long gone from my mind had returned,
I started realising that there was beuty in melody,
In my mind was ringing that old lovesong,
Seperated we were not by walls,not by cages,
but by a few yards ,a few yards which seemed like a million miles......
I could not help but take my eyes of her,
In the flickering of an instant my attention was turned,
and when i looked back i could not see her,
Taken away she was by the mob that was around us,
I pushed through the mob,pushed and pushed through till the mob was no more,
I couldnt find her,searched her i did,in the nearby bus stop,
In the chain of shops nearby,but find her,i couldn't....
Did she ever notice me,i dont know,
Will i ever see her again ,i dont know either,
But the few moments that i saw her were beautiful,
the music that i heard durin that time i hear it still but it does not seem to have the same
mesmerising effect,the colours that i saw then had vanished and i never saw them ever again

I wait till this day for a day that i may see her again,
waiting i am for that very special day when i see my sweetheart for the next time..................



P.S-Dedicated to all lovers in search of their true love................

Friends,Cetians,Collegemates
for 2 years did the sun not rise,
for 2 years did we have to dwell in the darkest of times,the times when all that was sweet was banished,
& the times when the music of our hearts was not heard,
when the distance between Sreekaryam & Chavadimukku seemed all so small,
when the rhythm of our lives wuz disrupted as the pride in our hearts dimnished,
all tat remained wuz a melancholy strain of in the past what we were,

True greatness can never be hidden,
like a star will it shine,twinkle thru whatever darkness,obstacles it may face,
for the force of the human will is so great that the echo of our voices can break through any barrier known yet,
and hence in the second year of our great dark era,
the muteness around us has begun to disappear,
as the melody of that silken voice has taken over
proclaiming,prophesising to us the true path to the light that lies at the end of our road,


This September CET transforms into the 'Village of Music',
This September we shout out to the whole world of our capability,
This September as the darkness of the night is breached by the roar of the crowd,
waving their hands & banging their feet to the tunes of the true masters,
The chosen ones shall witness the rebirth,the renaissance & the reestablishment of DHWANI,
the greatest show yet witnessed by the abode of Anantha,


So my friends chose u must -whether to be among the elite or whether to be among the normal,
whether to stand out from the rest or whether be among the rest,
whether to be a leader or a meagre follower,
whether to be the one or be none,
whether to witness DHWANI or not,

THE CHOICE IS URS TO MAKE FOR I CAN ONLY SHOW U THE PATH ,
ITS UP TO U TO WALK THROUGH IT....................................................


DHWANI'O6-CET -SEP O6
'BE THERE'